How to Deal

I saw that movie last night; it was cute….not a piece of cinematic gold or anything, but cute, nonetheless. I’m feeling strange today…I got worried because of something that may derail my path temporarily. I had this “off” feeling all day, and then I got home and found out tonight that one of my friends was laid off from his job.

That really helped put things into perspective for me. While I’m still dealing with uncertainty in pursuing my ambition and love, I’m not having to worry right now about where my next paycheck will come from. I do have at least some level of job security. It amazes me how quickly you can have the rug pulled out from under you…thinking that everything is moving along, and then all of the sudden, you’re just dropped into the middle of chaos. So, while I’m sad that I’m not in the place in life where I wished I’d be at this point, I am grateful, because we are relatively safe right now and we are trying to do our best to make sure we stay that way.

I also found out today from another friend that she’s expecting! Yay! That’ll be a great chance to hone my knitting skills and make lots of great things for the new baby. I’m so happy for her…she’s worked hard and been patient, getting her M.A degree and then seeing her hubby through school, and now all of the hard work has paid off with a great home, great family, and now a new baby. Congrats, H!

I’m missing Joey pretty badly today…this past weekend was so fantastic that I was so sad to see it end and him have to go back to school. Oh!, and yesterday was my parents’ 40th wedding anniversary!! I can’t even put into words what awesome parents I have…no one out there has better parents than I do, and I’m really proud to be their daughter. They taught me well, and they really showed me what a true marriage looked like, which already has (and I’m sure will continue to) come in handy in making my own marriage work. And my parents are just pretty freakin’ cool. Happy ‘Versry, Mom and Dad!!

So, right now, I’m in a spinning pool of happy events and sad ones, of feelings of elation and bliss and feelings of anxiety, worry, and sadness.

Things I want to do this week:

1. Go for a run or two
2. KNIT!!
3. Fold the laundry
4. Hear back from J. Tovey.
5. Write a TON and a half.
6. Get the grocery budget back under control

Examples of God providing the past month that Joey has been in school;

1. The Hyundai is getting 40 mpg with him driving it.
2. Rhonda the Honda is getting 34
3. Our gasoline bill for May was only 75% of what I budgeted
4. We paid Joey’s summer tuition and board out-of-pocket without hurting badly
5. Two weeks ago, our grocery bill was only $12.84

Here’s another (slightly blurry) pic of Shelli in my stash for your viewing pleasure!

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