Another Sunday is drawing to a close. It was a relatively nice day despite some frustration at church over a couple of different things. I gave my parents a bound copy of my thesis; it was a win:). My parents got me lots of nice clothes for my birthday (Wednesday), which are much appreciated since I’m sorely lacking in clothes that fit me at this size. They also gave me the most hilarious card EVER.
That was from the graduation service at church…I didn’t drive up to school to walk since I did the program online and didn’t know anyone.
So, I’m still feeling pretty frustrated and restless with the way we’re living right now and wanting to live more simply and peaceably…it hit me again at church this morning during the music. I’ve been having a pretty rough time with music in general since Phil died. I haven’t listened to it that much (except for a solid month of the Monkees after Davy died), and I’ve lost a lot of my joy about singing altogether. I used to get really excited when I was asked to sing something. Now, I just feel kind of blah. I’m hoping it’ll pass, because I do know that Phil wouldn’t want me to quit just because he’s not here to give me confidence anymore. I thought about him a lot this morning because 3/4 of the music this morning was stuff that I’d connected with him over the years.
Anyway, enough of that. I think some changes are afoot, though, because I’m finally feeling frustrated enough to start taking action. I’ve always been like that…when I was a kid, it would take me foreeeever and ever to get frustrated enough with my room to actually clean it (shut up, Mom and Dad!!! ;)), but when I did, I really went on a spree. I’m finally getting frustrated enough with all of the “stuff”…the clutter, excess, the diversions and distractions, the emotional roadblocks. I’m not feeling quite so isolated at work anymore, so I’m pretty much out of the woods as far as mental angst goes at this point.
So, I’m going to make a list of things to accomplish this week (because I always used to love making lists), and then maybe get to it and maybe, just maybe, finish a thing or two;).
I’m kind of like that re: taking action, too. I wish I wasn’t – letting things hit crisis point isn’t really the best way to handle things…