Needless to say, once I made peace with the litany of terrible side effects I’d read about (even if half of them were exaggerated), I realized that I was going to need to adjust my weight loss goal to be a bit more realistic. I’d only read one account of someone losing weight while on Lupron, so although I refuse to let myself believe that weight loss is impossible during treatment, I accepted the fact that I probably wasn’t going to be looking at completing my weight loss journey (to the tune of 50-60 more pounds) even if I was extremely diligent with food and fitness. That was a tough pill to swallow, folks. I’d already mentally prepared myself to bust ass and get myself to my goal weight come hell or high water, and now I was looking at having to dial that back (and maybe even accept that losing another 10 or 20 pounds would be a struggle). After much cussing and crying, I re-evaluated and created a new set of “Lupron Goals.”
I decided that I wouldn’t express any weight-related goals in pounds. I know what I have left to lose, and I know that I want to lose as much of it as I can before we were to (potentially) get pregnant. But I also know that giving myself a number at this point would be self-defeating if the Lupron keeps me from reaching that number as quickly as I want. As a result, my goals (both weight-related and non) are not number-related accomplishments.
In no particular order:
- RUN a 5K in its entirety. I’ve got three scheduled over the next few months (4/23, 5/14, and 6/11). I’m doubtful that I’ll be running the whole 5K on 4/23, but I do plan to run more than I walk. I’ve tried to become a runner so many times over the last ten years or so, but in the last year, I’ve actually committed and started seeing progress.
- Get paid to write. I’ve wanted to do this for years, and now is the time to start making that happen.
- Hike Mount Mitchell. This is the biggie for me. Joey and I love to hike and camp, and Mount Mitchell is the highest peak east of the Mississippi River. For whatever reason, I feel like making it to the top will be my own way of saying that I kicked Lupron’s ass. We’re tentatively scheduling the trip for my birthday weekend, which will be a week or so after my final shot.
- Not be an butthole to everyone. Lupron moodiness is a real thing (I’ve learned since the first shot).
- Not eat everything in sight all of the time. Lupron hunger is also a real thing (more on all of this in a future post).
So, that’s it. No “be at a current weight by the end of the summer.” No “stay under 100 grams of carbs every day.” No “work out 5 days a week.” I know what’s required to get across the finish line at a race and to the top of Mount Mitchell. And every step I take toward that is a giant middle finger to the face of this drug that’s defeated so many women.
You might be my hero. I went on one rotation of Lupron and could not manage my life. You’ve found a way. YOU are a fighter. XX
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