It’s been quite some time since I last wrote; I’ve actually been legitimately busy. Brace yourselves, because this may be a long one. Since my final shot:
1. My side effects have subsided!
Thank goodness; they started to go away after about four weeks, which, from what I read, was the normal timeframe for that process to begin. I cannot express in words how glad I am for the bone pain to be gone. I’ve even managed to run a couple of times since with NO pain, which makes me pretty excited about fall/winter hiking and my next two 5Ks I’ve got scheduled. My mood has improved VASTLY, although I’m not gonna lie, I sure would like to have some PMS symptoms about now so we can get back on the fertility treatment train. But mostly, I’m just so grateful to have survived the Lupron experience and come out on the other side relatively unscathed. I even managed a 5.3 mile hike on Labor Day in which I didn’t end up stumbling and tripping constantly. I can’t tell you how much more enjoyable that makes hiking.
2. The weight has come back off!
I gained about 11 pounds throughout the course of the treatment. Although I was pissed about it, I didn’t beat myself up too much because I’d largely managed to keep from eating all of the food (one of my Lupron Goals), so I figured that it would come off relatively quickly once my appetite went back to normal. And it DID! I’ve actually lost about 17 pounds since July 16th and am seeing numbers I haven’t seen in five years. It hasn’t been effortless by any stretch; I’ve had to work hard and really clean up my diet, but it’s led to a completely different relationship with food and an understanding about what my body needs and how to fuel it properly (more on that in a future post).
3. I hiked Mount Mitchell!
You’ll recall that this was my most important Lupron Goal. And I did it. I’ll post a longer recap of the hike itself later. It was by far the most difficult thing I’ve ever done physically, and outside of holding the family together while my dad was in the hospital back in 2007, it was the toughest mental battle too. I had a panic attack when it started raining on us, and it took significantly longer than I thought it would, but I reached the top, bloody, dirty, and tear-stained, and I stood on the observation deck looking across what seemed like hundreds of mountains, feeling like I’d conquered the world. I did it.
4. I’m getting paid to write!
This actually happened a little after the Lupron treatment was completed, but I’m still counting it as one of my Lupron Goals. I’ve been writing for #AmReading for a few weeks now, and while the pay isn’t much, it’s been fun and interesting and is looking to be the launching point for landing higher-paying clients. I’m writing about books and reading, and you can check out some of my articles here, here, here, here, here, and here!
There is a downside, though, I must be honest. I can no longer blame my grumpiness on the Lupron. While it has improved and the little bit of patience I had has come back, I’ve always been pretty crusty and prickly, so I’ve lost my excuse. I’ve had to replace, “sorry! I’m just Lupron grumpy!” with “Sorry, I’m just a horrible person and you’re annoying.” So that sucks.
I can tell you, without reservation, that I do not regret my decision to go through treatment with Lupron Depot. It was hard…probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through. But I can also tell you that I’ve come out on the other side feeling better, healthier, and stronger than I have in quite some time. And I credit a lot of that to Joey. I never would’ve made it through this without a constant source of support and unconditional love (and LOTS of patience), someone to be a caretaker and sounding board, to remind me that I could make it through this. Joey and Jesus got me through:).
This isn’t the end of the story; I promise. There are too many things going on (both good and bad), and I want this endometriosis, infertility, weight loss, and personal growth journey out there, if nothing else than to show people that it’s possible to survive–and maybe even thrive–through tough times.
More to come!